I believe life is full of contradictions, and that that’s what keeps it interesting.
I know that I’m a walking contradiction most days, because I don’t fit the profile. I don’t look like the image most people have of an addict or a felon.
Yesterday, I realized that there are many areas where I’m a total contradiction. I realized it as i sat cross legged on my yoga mat, puffing away with my vape mod (e-cigarette).
It got me to thinking about all the contradictions in my daily life. Back when i drove a Volvo, I’m pretty sure they didn’t design that car with me in mind. I used to blast Metallica as I drove down the road in my shot up jeans and my distressed sweaters and badass boots.
I’m quite the city girl. I don’t want to be out here in the middle of nowhere. I love being in the city (which is weird for an introvert). I love the energy of a city, and the fact that I can be in the city without being part of the madness. My apartment in downtown Shreveport was my dream come true (I just wish it had been a bigger city). Yet here I am, out in the middle of nowhere. I’m growing vegetables and feeding chickens and gathering eggs and canning foods and it all feels so strange because I know us rather be sitting on a patio at a restaurant watching the crowds flow by as I enjoy lunch.
I’m a girl, yet I enjoyed my job as a stagehand. I had to love it or I wouldn’t have put up with the lack of females in the industry. I’m a girl, yet I dont like “girly” things. I don’t do my nails, I don’t wear a lot of makeup, and I stomp around like somebody on a military march instead of that graceful single line stomp we see from runway models.
I don’t know where I’m going with this, or what my point might be. I am, however, interested in hearing from you guys: how are you a walking contradiction?