Thank you, Benjamin, for nominating me for this award. Your kind words made me cry pretty early this morning. They mean a lot coming from you, because I respect and admire you so much. You’re one of those people I’ve come to love, even though we haven’t had lunch or coffee together. Yet😁
If you haven’t checked Benjamin out yet, I encourage you to do so. His is a voice that deserves to be heard; he delves into some weighty social issues in a very personal way that truly touches my heart.
So, I’m supposed to write a paragraph, about something positive about myself.
It’s hard to choose something positive about myself. Well, actually, it’s hard to choose just one, because I’m so full of the awesome all the way through.
Just kidding. Being the fully westernized
wypipo woman I am (and an addict on top of that), I tend to see the negatives first, foremost, and always. I also tend to be a very fully westernized wypipo woman that’s really good at beating herself up for the tiniest little imperfection.
Side note: wypipo is deliberately there,
wypipo problems #firstworldproblems.
Ultimately, the one positive thing about me that I have to choose to write about is my recovery from addiction. Anything else good about me stems from that, even all the good stuff my mama taught me as a kid. My addiction took so much decency, goodness, and normalcy; and it buried it under a mountain of character defects and nasty behaviour (AKA shortcomings). Through my journey in recovery, I have learned to accept myself just as I am, even the flawed parts; and I’ve also learned how to take the flawed parts and get into the solution. I don’t always do it perfectly; and that’s where I’m glad that pretty much all of the world’s spiritual teachings say that nobody’s perfect so we just do the best we can to keep growing. Recovery has also opened me up to other people: I see the beauty of a person’s humanity, other people’s feelings matter to me, I remain open-minded because everyone has something to teach me. I don’t dwell on past mistakes and I don’t worry too much over potential future problems; I try and stay in the moment and just experience the joys of living it. Again, I have to state that I do none of that perfectly. Some days, I do none of it at all. I do the best I can with what I have to work with. I always try to keep in mind that I’m fighting my biology; I’m fighting my disease; and I’m fighting the damage my addiction did to my mind, body, and spirit. I scream for help when I need it, and I try and listen for the screams of others. Someone heard my screams and responded; it is my honor and duty to hear someone else’s screams, even when I can only respond with a hug.
Now, I’m supposed to nominate other bloggers, so:
Tag, you’re it😁
The last thing on Benjamin’s checklist for this award was a Mic drop, so I leave you with this: